im in love with a murder

realize.
realize how i hate you.
realize how i love you.
realize how much will power it toke me.
to say those 3 words.

im regret saying those 3 words. but you dont know that.
i hurt. you hurt.
but time has passed.
and you have healed.
and i am still broken.

i remain that way for so long.
because time is longer when your in pain.
i said what i didnt mean.
i wrote what i didnt mean.
you saw what i didnt mean.

and you believed.

i cut my tongue.
you wont see the mark or pain.
i hid it.
but i bleeds.
everytime you look at me.
it doesnt hurt.
but now everything i eat is...

tasteless....

i said those 3 words when what i meant to say is...
i love you.

im sorry.

i dont hate you at all.
i hate myself.
for loving you.
but ill heal.
when you go to hell.

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